Within the darkest moments of a household tragedy, when the playwright Mona Pirnot couldn’t discover the energy to verbalize her emotions to her boyfriend or her therapist, she tried one thing a bit of unorthodox: She typed her ideas into her laptop computer, and prompted a text-to-speech program to voice them aloud.
It was a coping mechanism that additionally sparked a inventive pivot: Pirnot’s then-boyfriend, now-husband, Lucas Hnath, can also be a playwright, with a longtime curiosity in sound and a more moderen historical past of constructing exhibits round disembodied voices. His final play, “A Simulacrum,” featured a magician re-creating his facet of a dialog with Hnath, whose voice was heard through a tape recording; and his play earlier than that, “Dana H.,” featured an actress lip-syncing interviews wherein the playwright’s mom recounted the trauma of getting been kidnapped.
Now Hnath is directing Pirnot, who wrote and is the lone actor in “I Love You So A lot I Might Die,” a diaristic exploration of how she was affected by a life-altering incident that incapacitated her sister at the beginning of the pandemic. Within the 65-minute present, in previews Off Broadway at New York Theater Workshop, Pirnot sits on a ladderback chair, going through away from the viewers, whereas a Microsoft text-to-speech program reads her strains. Between chapters of storytelling, Pirnot performs the guitar and sings songs that she wrote.
The pc’s voice is male, robotic, and, after all, unemotional; its cadence, and the size of pauses, varies primarily based on how Pirnot and Hnath have punctuated the textual content. This system makes occasional errors — a operating joke issues the pronunciation of Shia LaBeouf — that the artists cherish. Listening to a machine recount tales of very human ache might be awkwardly humorous, and audiences are laughing, notably early within the present, as they alter to the disorienting expertise.
“I just like the relentlessness that I can get with [the computer’s] voice that’s sort of surprising and shocking, and I discover it to be at instances very shifting however at instances extraordinarily anxiousness upsetting,” Pirnot stated. “This really looks like I’m capturing and sharing a bit of little bit of what this felt like.”
The manufacturing options a few of Hnath’s signature fingerprints. Like “The Christians,” his 2015 play set in an evangelical church, “I Love You So A lot I Might Die” consists of snaking cords and cables, reflecting his choice for clear stagecraft. The set, designed by Mimi Lien, is very spare — a folding desk, a lamp from the couple’s bed room, some audio system, and, within the nook, a purple canister for the present’s one, virtually imperceptible, haze impact.
“It’s so not slick,” Hnath stated. “It mainly publicizes ‘We’re not pretending. We’re simply attending to work.’ I received anxious about it turning right into a pristine artwork set up. Anytime one thing will get slick, I cease trusting it, or I query, ‘What are they hiding?’”
Hnath has been experimenting with unsettling makes use of of audio for a while. “The Skinny Place,” his 2019 play a couple of psychic, and “Dana H.” embrace moments of deeply jarring sound. And in “Dana H.,” “A Simulacrum” and now “I Love You So A lot I Might Die,” every with sound design by Mikhail Fiksel, there’s the separation of speech from speaker, in numerous methods.
“I feel there’s a part of me that, deep down, is a pissed off composer. My old flame was music, and I at all times wished to compose music, so loads of how I method playwriting may be very compositional,” Hnath stated. He enjoys “the extent of management I may have over the sonic qualities and the rhythm,” he added. “I can construct it so it doesn’t change and it’s precisely what I imply.”
Hnath’s performs have usually concerned what he unapologetically calls “a gimmick” — a process for a performer that leaves little room for error, like an actress completely imitating the phrases, breaths and pacing of one other girl. His subsequent play is about line memorization, and dramatizes an older performer operating strains with a youthful performer; Hnath describes it as “a nightmare to be taught — anyone getting a line improper 5 other ways — I don’t know the way you be taught that.”
For “I Love You So A lot I Might Die,” Pirnot and Hnath settled on the text-to-speech answer regularly. At first, in 2020 and 2021, Pirnot was writing about her unhappiness simply as a approach to course of her emotions. A few of it was akin to journal entries; some was virtually a transcription of conversations with members of the family. At one level, Hnath thought Pirnot ought to flip the fabric right into a memoir.
After they started speaking about staging the work, it was nonetheless peak pandemic, when in-person gatherings have been difficult. So that they held an early studying, with actors, through video assembly; Pirnot and Hnath briefly mentioned having her script carried out every time by a unique actor studying the phrases chilly.
Pirnot test-drove the text-to-speech thought with a brief podcast monologue. And at dwelling, she would work at a desk by the foot of their mattress, that means that typically, when he was seated on the mattress, she would play the fabric along with her again to him, and that setup knowledgeable the play because it moved to their front room, Ensemble Studio Theater, Dartmouth (for a residency), and now New York Theater Workshop, the place it opens on Wednesday.
Over time, the story turned extra about Pirnot’s emotions, and fewer about her sister’s medical scenario, which she doesn’t element within the play.
“All the pieces that’s included within the present may be very deliberately to report on the expertise of when life breaks open and utterly falls aside, and what you do with all these items and the way it makes you’re feeling and the way you proceed to maneuver ahead,” she stated. “I felt like I may present that have with out saying, ‘And by the way in which, right here’s the precise order of extraordinarily excruciating, relentless sequence of occasions that made for my new understanding.’”
Why write about one thing so painful in the event you don’t wish to share the specifics?
“After combating so arduous to maintain a beloved one alive, the query turns into for what and why?,” she stated. “That is what I’ve to share. That is actually what I wish to specific. Though I query each night time, ‘How may I be doing this? How may I be sharing this a lot?,’ it feels much less unhappy to me than doing one thing that I’ve solely put half of myself into.”
For Hnath, the collaboration suits into his personal longstanding storytelling pursuits.
“One of many earliest initiatives I did in grad college was an adaptation of the Zen koan about Sen-jo. Sen-jo separates from her soul — there’s the soul after which there’s the physique. And which one is the actual Sen-jo? I feel I’ve been sort of fixated on the strain between bodily and psychological or mental. In order that’s at all times been within the background.”
